Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Avoidance

Notice how good I've got at avoiding any talk about eating and my weight?

Just can't seem to get my head into it at the moment (by moment, I mean the last few months!).

I went back to counting points for a week. This was successful, in the form of a 500 gram loss, but I hated it. I just can't cope with the routine and discipline of counting and tracking anymore. The points system is very good and I lost stacks of weight using it, but it's just not my thing right now. I'm back to a very vague form of NoCount, but I'm sure my weekend of drinking (and hangover eating) will preclude any loss this week.

My exercise is still good, but the whole eating thing really is eluding me. I know WHAT I have to do and HOW to do it, but just can't seem to actually DO it. (no Nike ads here please)

I know some of you will tell me not to beat myself up. After all, I lost almost 55kg in just over a year, I deserve to cut myself some slack.

NO I BLOODY DON'T!

I want to lose another 6kg. I don't want to still be trying to do that at Christmas (when, by the way, my whole family is descending on my place).

So, what to do? I really can't seem to find an answer to that question at the moment.

15 comments:

Kyra said...

Well, what exactly are you doing that isn't according to your plan? That's the first step. The next step is to ask yourself what you gain from that? Is it relief from tracking? Feeling "like your old self"? Simple pleasure from the food?

You have to pinpoint your motivation before you can address it. :)

And you HAVE come a long way! Now it's just a matter of figuring out if it's worth it to you to go the rest of the distance.

Kathryn said...

Oh I know exactly how you feel. I think it's a case of still wanting it but it not being the all consuming passion it used to be.

Melli said...

Sue, I have sO many friends that are at the same point in their weight loss that you are. It seems like after you have done the majority of the work, there comes a time when you just NEED a break! You may not WANT the break -- but apparently your psyche needs it more than you think! My advice in this case is always to "give" yourself a month. NOT to pig out -- but to just NOT diet. Don't FORCE yourself to do the exercise - do it when you want to. I'm sure by this point your body craves exercise enough times a week that you won't lose shape. And don't "worry" with what you eat... but don't let yourself go overboard to where you gain. Just live "normal" and maintain. I think if you allow yourself this for a month, you'll come back with your head in the right place to get back on the program and do what you need to do. It's better than doing all this anyway... but beating yourself up for it. Because then you feel like your fighting yourself constantly. Just say, I've come this far, and this is what I'm going to do. (you don't have to feel you 'deserve' it if you don't want to... just feel like it's a decision that you are in control of)

Hope whatever you decide works for you! And thanks for stopping by today! It was great seeing you over on MY side of the pond!

Suzy said...

I know what you mean about counting points. I have been trying to go back to it this week and it just won't happen. I am sure the Winter doesn't help at all with motivation. We will soon have warmer days and be happy to eat lovely salads and lighter foods, but at the moment we crave and need warmer comforting food. As long as you maintain and not gain during this time you are still doing a wonderful job.
Don't worry, your fantastic attitude and determination that helped oyu lose all that weight will soon return and you WILL get to your goal. xx

Lee-Anne said...

I feel I'm in the same blah place as you at the moment. Personally, I blame the weather, cause it can't be me but honest part of my brain shuts down over winter, I find it hard to get motivated. Looking forward to next month, maybe we can kick each others arse.

Ang said...

Come on Sue!

M@rla said...

I say: try to maintain. Don't give yourself too much slack because that lowers your baseline - it allows for constant slippage until you're suddenly in a bad place. So do the best you can each day and hold onto your place, because the motivation WILL come back. Something you see or read will set off sparks in your brain and you'll be re-energized and rededicated. Hang on!

Ails said...

Counting points does seem like such a whole lot of work and let's face it, we do enough other work throughout the day so it's not surprising that we soon lose the motivation to write everything done. Finding our mojo seems to be theme amongst alot of the blogs at the moment and I guess this process is entirely an individual one. What works for me (and I haven't entirely found that yet) may not work for you. It's a tough journey and hope you find your way to the path soon x

Mary said...

I know where you're at and I don't think there's anything magical I can say. What are your priorities right now?

Over the past month, I needed to focus my energy elsewhere but lost that feeling I got from exercise and felt bloated. I wanted my energy back and to get rid of the bloat so yep, back to it. Something just clicked and I wanted it bad enough.

We get comfortable and you have come so far and are looking fab! The same drive isn't there to lose as it was in the beginning. I think it'll click for you too when you're really ready for it to bring some kind of closure to this mission! :-)

Rachel said...

Give yourself a goal and a reward (but make it a GOOD ONE - something special) and this might help get you back on track.

Learning Leaders said...

Hi Sue - understand exactly what you are going through....I really have no advice as to how to get that magical switch in the head to turn to say "I am doing this" but as you know after losing so much weight all ready you have it in there somewhere - you'll find it again.lb

Julie's Journey said...

I think it is just winter. I am exactly the same and have found myself actually searching the pantry for something to eat. Hang in there - Im sure we will weather this storm too.
:o)

Anne said...

No answers for you at all Sue - if I had one I would be on my way again once more. I'm like you (and quite a few others) that I just can't seem to get into it at all. Also like you exercise is fine - just the eating being quite slack.

Margaret said...

The good thing is that at least you are still asking the question. And you are making us ask that of ourselves too.

To round it down it is 5 months until December. 5 months to lose 6 kgs doesn't seem like too much of a challenge. BUT your body has already shaved off 55kgs so it is going to take more work to knock that 6kgs off now than it did before. You already do so much, I wonder if a completely new form of exercise is what your body wants. Have you tried skipping? I can only do a couple of minutes at a time at the moment and boy does it get the heart racing and the blood moving. I think because it is so much faster than any of my other exercise it will help me to shift the body into the next gear.

It is a pain that we can't seem to keep that same level of enthusiasm that we had at the beginning but it is so normal. We now have so much more to think about - clothes shopping, shoe shopping, clothes shopping, bag shopping LOL

Briony said...

I can't imagine how fantastic it would feel to have lost 55kg and only have 6kg to go to hit goal. I would want to get there ASAP, but then there's that whole maintenance thing and the girls at goal say you have to change your mindset away from "I must lose weight". That just sounds scarey. I say try a different form of exercise, something you've not tried before - but I have no valid suggestions!! Sorry. I'm a waste of space today.
Bri