Wednesday, April 25, 2007

This time tomorrow...

Yes, Jake leaves tomorrow morning.

As the time draws near I am finding this increasingly hard to face with good humour. So far my meltdowns have been in private, but the airport tomorrow is going to be incredibly difficult.

We haven't seen much of Jake in the last week or so, as he rushes about fitting in all the social things he wants to do before he goes. I suspect there is also an element of keeping busy so he doesn't have to think about leaving.

Last week we gave his poenamo so he could carry his homeland and family with him.

His bag isn't packed, his washing isn't done, his room isn't tidied. No doubt his loving Mum will help him get all the essential things done this afternoon and then finish the rest after he goes.

And somehow I will find the strength to let him get on that plane.

22 comments:

Chris H said...

My heart goes out to you, I cannot imagine how hard it will be for you to say "goodbye", even though he will be back mother! Just be brave and don't make the poor bugger feel any worse by breaking down and screaching like a banshee!!! And I don't want to hear on the news about some mad mother having to be prised off her son as he tries to get on the bloody plane either....Have a good stiff drink or two....

Anne said...

I know exactly how you are feeling, two of our kikds went overseas and both stayed for several years. It will hurt like hell when he goes but try and remember that eases a lot once you know they are there safely and the acceptence that are are away hits in. Both ours made a couple of trips back in their time away and the farewells got a little easier.

Thinking of you.

Brandi said...

I can't say that I understand, since I am only 22 and my daughter is only 3 ... but since I am a mature 22 and I love my three year old very much, I CAN say that I feel for you, and that I'm sure his comfort in leaving home comes at least partly from knowing that he can come back, and that you'll be there.

Leaving Florida (USA) for East Tennessee when I was a teen was really hard because I came with my mom and left my dad behind. My father and I are very VERY close, and it was hard to leave knowing that he wouldn't be down the road anymore. But it helped me to learn to get by on my own, while still having the comfort of knowing he'd break necks to get to me if I needed him.


And now? I'm trying to get him to move here so he can share that same bond with his granddaughter ...

Lyn said...

My kids aren't old enough to leave home yet but I got a sudden shock last week when my 12yr old daughter came home after getting her long hair cut short and boy did she look old. I got that sudden feeling of "oh my god she's growing up, before I know it she'll be leaving home". Certainly not looking forward to that day, but know it must happen.

Jake will always have a bed at home and he'll be back sometime. Not that I'm experienced enough to comment

Julie's Journey said...

The good thing is that by letting them go they will come back.
My heart goes out to you.
Be strong and just tell him how proud you are of him and how much you love him and how you will always be there for him.
Thing of you.

Lee said...

Hiya Sue
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. It'll be equally as hard for him I'm sure.
Take care.

Anonymous said...

Hey Sue... {{{{{big hugs}}}}} My heart goes out to you. I don't know what I would do if my boys were to go overseas it is a hard thing but something your boy has to do. Will be thinking of you tomorrow.

Love Chubbymum

Suzy said...

Oh, I will be thinking of you too. You will be glad for him embarking on his new adventure, but you will be sad for you and I will be sad for you too. Sons are very special people to have around. It is so hard being a Mum sometimes. xx

Zanna said...

It will be so hard but it is like Julie says - it's by letting them go that we actually keep them close. None of which will mean a cracker to you tomorrow but you will get through it since you are the loving Mum you are. Will be thinking of you.

Lee-Anne said...

I have been thinking about you quite often knowing this day was fast approaching. You will be okay but yes it will be hard. You've brought him up well. This is just another step us mums go through. Learning to let go. Stuff it. Just tell him NO. Just joking of course. lol.

This is a fantastic experience for him. The growing and maturing will be phenomenal. Sit back and enjoy his ride. And be the proud mum you are. You taught him well and gave him a good grounding in life. This is what will keep him going. That and the spunky kid he is.

You will both do just fine.

Big hugs to you both.

Kate said...

Oh man, it will be hard :-( Will be thinking of you!

Felicity said...

u r in my thoughts Sue

Shauna said...

Ohhh Sue! :( It must be hard saying goodbye. Hopefully when he gets back he will bring you oodles and oodles of presents!!!

(you've made me realise i should have been more sympathetic to my ma when my sister and i left oz, she lost both of us at the same time and we were practically skipping down the tarmac with excitment. seems obnoxious in hindsight!)

Jules said...

Oh darling Sue, I have come too late to let you know that a good dose of Rescue Remedy would have been in order for all of you. Hope it goes well and you'll just have to find a project to throw yourself into.

Rachel said...

I hope Jakes farewell went OK, I am thinking of you.

Thank god we now have the internet to keep in contact eh?

ali4579@gmail.com said...

*hugs* hope it went ok!

Kathryn said...

Oh noes! It's not too late to have another one you know.

Good luck for getting through it all.

Karen said...

Hope Jakes farewell went ok hun - I still remember my younger brother when he went overseas and mum and I were bawling our eyes at the airport!

Hope we can organise a big catch up some time soon...

M@rla said...

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Felicity said...

thinking about u hope u r ok

Suzy said...

Just checking in to see if you are OK.

LBTEPA said...

Hope you are going ok HUGS